I'm waiting out some time this morning while my hair dries.
Tonight we're off to a dressy awards ceremony and I have yet to give myself a manicure and paint my nails - BUT, I have the dress, shoes and bag all ready.
Mr E took me shopping yesterday and after we found the perfect suit, tie and belt for him, we spent the remaining 90% of the afternoon shopping for my outfit.
The dress was found within 30 minutes, but the shoes and bag? Hours. I didn't want sky high heels that I couldn't balance on so that narrowed the field for finding some sweet strappy blacks to match the purple beaded chiffon dress.
It's been about 25 years since I wore a cocktail dress or attended such a function so it felt like a new learning curve. I decided to call it an 'adventure' and to enjoy every moment - that helped calm the anxiety.
The dress is a purple satiny slip with shoestring straps, and it sits underneath a purple chiffon floaty sheath...like wearing two dresses.
The shoes have 4" heels, which will take some balancing, but they were better than the 6" heels I saw in abundance everywhere or the 2" heeled granny sandals!
You'd think designers would make some middle of the road pretty shoes for us "no-longer-20-but-not-yet-old" women, don't you? I bet there is a huge market out there for them if my shoe shopping hours of yesterday can be claimed as evidence.
(Princess Sophie is not impressed at all, just annoyed that I was disturbing her morning nap...)
The bag is a clutch purse, but has a long finely chained strap if I need to pop it over my shoulder during the evening.
Again, it took a lot of time to find a bag that didn't have any sharp edges, beading or glitter. As the over-dress is chiffon I needed a 'smooth' finish to my bag so as not to catch chiffon threads accidentally.
I hope the outfit comes together tonight. My husband looks amazing in his black suit and blue/purple tie - but as this is a work function for him I'd like to 'compliment' his appearance with mine (there will be a lot of mingling during the first hour, and then it's the awards and dinner).
ANYHOW...in the big scheme of life tonight's dress code or dinner will not hold much importance. It's just an event that this time tomorrow will be a memory.
This morning I wanted to remind myself of that, and as I opened one of my Bibles to the Psalms, this note I printed out a few years ago fell at my feet.
It was what I needed to read, and as it ministered so graciously to my soul I decided to share it with you too...
This came from a lovely woman named Jewels. She wrote it on her blog many years ago and I kept it because the message was exactly what I needed that day, and what I was sure I'd need in the future.
Sometimes I feel so very alone, and in those times I just wish I'd known my mum, and could remember what it felt like to have her hold me; to hear her say 'I love you, Jennifer'.
But I don't have those pre-3yo toddler memories, so there is an aching emptiness always present that occasionally needs to be felt and not hidden.
This prayer and note from Jewels is love shone into my heart, comforting and affirming me. She would never have realised the blessed gift of her blog that day, but it was something I still treasure.
No matter if you're a Christian or not, Jewel's words and her prayer will nourish your soul and give life to you today. Read it. She wrote it to *you*, precious woman, to who you are and where you're at right now in your life.