The past few weeks I've sensed an un-settling in my life, or more specifically, an unsettling of my heart.
I couldn't put my finger on what exactly had caused this feeling, but each day it grew and I became frustrated because I was unable to identify the source to 'fix' it.
So I prayed, and GOD answered, but not in the way I'd imagined.
You see, I've been looking for a small coffee break devotional for my afternoon quiet time. Those ten minutes I take about 5pm to sit and think before doing a tidy of my work space and beginning dinner preparations before my beloved arrives home only bring peace when I'm meditating on Scriptural things.
I wanted something short, thoughtful and Scriptural but with punch. I like a Bible devotional (whether short or long) to be deep and obvious - forcing me to acknowledge and address my sin quickly and opening a deeper insight into the Word of God. The end result must be a closer walk with Jesus and if not, I stop using it.
It's been a while since I found one that got me motivated to change, but "5 Minutes with Jesus" by Sheila Walsh arrived last week and it has me churning Scripture, thoughts, attitude and choices already.
But the biggest change came about on day five when Sheila took me to Psalm 46:10a, "Be still, and know that I am God."
Like most people I suppose, when I read this passage I always imagine myself stopping, sitting quietly, being 'in the moment' and closing out the distractions of the world for a while. Do you respond like that too?
But do you know what the original Hebrew root of 'be still' does not mean to stop and be quiet, it means LET GO.
I was sitting on the front steps with our puppy and my coffee as I read this, and the Trade Winds were blowing wild around us. I let those words sink in for a minute and then spoke them into the air over and over, "Let GO and know that I am God".
Those words were more than a punch to my heart, they were the key to a locked room in my mind where I'd been storing away more and more 'works', more and more plans for work, more and more desires for work, more and more of more. That locked room held all my busy-ness; mental folders filled with more busy-ness than you can imagine, because I have a fear of being lazy, of stopping, of doing nothing, of being useless.
Talk about having the lights switched on.
I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. The wild winds rushed over my head; cool and caressing fingers lifted my hair in a heavenly healing massage and I could hear God's gentle instruction "let go, Jenny...", and I really wanted to. I still want to.
You don't know the weight of what you carry emotionally until it is lifted. You don't know how heavy you've loaded your life until God asks you to let things go. You don't even know what all that excess baggage is right away, but you do know it's there and has been crippling your life.
My life journey may look very different to yours, but perhaps we've both shared in the hoarding of busy-ness and over-commitment to the point where we are weary beyond explanation? Maybe you have been measuring your value on what you do, too? Have you been fearful of stopping, of LETTING GO?
Friend, be still.
Dear friend, let go.
Precious sister in Christ, know that He is God and you don't need those things in your life anymore.
No matter why those attitudes grew to be part of our nature (for me it was a father who only valued me on what I did or achieved) they are poison and have robbed us of a life worth living, a life of joy, a life with an open hand that knows how to let go.
I have a new hobby.
It's called letting go.
What about you?
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