Have you heard this line from a Robert Burns poem - "the best laid schemes of mice and men often go awry"?
It reminds me that whilst I may carefully conceive in my thoughts a set plan or course of action, life will often step in and upend my scheme without explanation or apology.
Too often in the past these detours brought anxiety and self-indulgent days, weeks and even months of regret and disappointment. My loss of control created feelings that can only be described as woeful, as in "Woe is me, my plans were thwarted and I could not do what I wanted!"
Tears, angry words, and copious blocks of chocolate soon followed. I've seen toddlers like this at the supermarket checkout but let's not go down that route, okay?
I'm truly not sure when the change in my 'control-freak' nature came about - a change that brought peace of heart, gentle acceptance and no need for explanations when life's path followed an unplanned course - but it did.
Over time the unexpected hiccups that frequent my existence became less and less important. I began to rest in the knowledge that God had it all under control and if my own plans were the best plans He'd bring them to pass, but if He had an alternate journey or outcome that mattered more in the larger tapestry of life, then that's the way we'd go.
You know, when you let go of yourself and all your personal quirks and desires and take to heart His promise in Jeremiah 29:11 ("For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord...) you'll find a peace and rest in your spirit that cannot be explained in human terms. It's quite truly super-natural.
His peace knows no bounds and is not a one-size-fits-all measure, and it's definitely not peace according to the latest self-help best seller written for the masses.
His peace is the exact peace that YOU, His precious child, will need in your very unique life circumstance today, tomorrow, or next year.
His measure is given to you, as much or as little as you need, freely available 24/7 and offered with a Love you will not fully grasp until heaven.
Don't be anxious.
Let go of your need to control.
Look up, breathe, your Prince of Peace is with you always.