At the very core of my being I am a simple hearted girl.
My dream, if I could have it, would be to own a small hobby farm outside of a country town. With a cow, chickens, and a duck looking on, I would have a swinging seat on the verandah, grow my own vegetables, and use as much recycled fabric/items as possible to add that gentle 'you are home' signature to everything I made.
A large tree with a swing would stand to the left of the verandah and my children and grandchildren would be laughing and playing amid the animals and birds each day until the sun shut its weary eyes and the darkness of night fell upon us. I would read to them the wonderful old classics once more - books that for many of their childhood years kept them entranced for hours each day as I brought the words to life with my dramatic characterisations while they huddled on the couch munching cheese, crackers and grapes.
I love that dream.
To live simply, to me, is to let go of the constant desire for 'more', to forgo the pursuit of 'things', and to enjoy - to relish - being home, being content, caring for loved ones, and making use of what you already have. It is to sit in the quiet and love where you are, to climb into bed each night and have no guilt or regrets.
Lately we have had a lot to manage with health and emotional issues in our family. As we experienced the highs and the lows we gathered loved ones closer and were reminded once more just how precious every moment is, how blessed we are to wake each day and still have each other's love and respect. Simple love, but perfect.
I bought this pre-loved doily for just 50c at an op-shop a few months back because it made me think about my dream. It has been sitting amongst my fabrics all this time waiting for inspiration on how I can use it.
The sentiment cross-stitched on the front encapsulates how I feel about my family - a home is not a house, but a place where your loved ones gather around you and want to stay.
In contrast to simplicity, part of the whirlwind of designing is that I constantly see new fabric ranges, and imagine what I would make with them. This used to be exciting, but lately my feelings have changed.
I see that a habit formed, a habit that I now want to break, a habit of buying more fabric than I could possibly use in my lifetime. Oh yes, the fabrics are beautiful! They inspire me to create. But, I am one person, and all those designs I have sketched? Most will never see a needle and thread. So why the big stash?? Why all those dollars spent on fabrics - it could have been used to reduce our debt, pay for a family holiday, or increase our giving. It might even have brought that dream of mine closer to being reality. Mmm....I'm really exposing my flaws today, aren't I?
The dilemma I have found myself in has a solution, though.
Stop buying fabric and all of those little pretties and trinkets that come home from the store with me. Stop buying more craft magazines that get flicked through then pile up by the side of the bookcase until I have to take a week to go through them, cutting out patterns that I want to make but rarely ever do. Stop buying.
Live SIMPLY with what I already have in my home.
It can be that simple for me.
So today, with a scan of my fabric cupboard, I chose a lovely piece I had bought over two years ago that reminded me of my grandmother and home, and it felt 'just right' (to quote Goldilocks!) to work with my doily...
I dug through my vintage button jar and found three successful applicants...
...to secure the back of my simple cushion.
I even made it simply - no wadding, no quilting, just a simple oversized cotton cushion cover that I really love because it speaks of my dream and reminds me what is most important.
Now to hold onto my dream and live more simply in all things.
Thanks for listening to my heart today,