How big is God to you?
Do you see Him through small eyes, eyes that shrink His ability to work in your life, eyes that cannot see clearly how great and wide and deep is His love for you? In your heart, do you believe He does not care enough about your needs, your grief, your lack, your pain, your unfulfilled hopes and prayers?
I have heard many people say (including a few in my own family) “Why would God bother with me?”, or “God won’t do anything about this”, or “It’s stupid to pray for that”…and every time they are looking at God with small eyes.
Years ago I looked at God with wide eyes, confident eyes; eyes that could not contain just how magnificent and wise and powerful and loving and faithful He is, and always has been. It was life changing. It happened the year I decided to re-focus my hopes and not give up on them anymore.
You see, there was a time when I would always believe God for small things, like a car park in the shade, or enough money to get everything on my grocery list, or for the rain to hold off until I got the washing off the line…I would always pray for stuff like that, totally believing He would answer, and He did! My husband would laugh and shake his head, but had to admit, God answered my little prayer.
But the big prayers? The ones which seemed so far out of reach that whole seasons would pass by and I would not be persistent to pray about them, rather, I’d accept they were too big, requiring a miracle beyond my faith…my faith in God if the truth be told.
So, what changed for me, what opened my eyes wide to see my big God? The Psalms. Especially the psalms of David, where he poured out his troubles, praised God to the highest of heaven, and described our Heavenly Father in a way that ripped the veil from my small eyes, so that I could see in panoramic majesty, the greatness of…
ADONAI Elohei Tzva’ot – the Lord God of Hosts
ADONAI Nissi – the Lord my banner and miracle
ADONAI Shalom – the Lord of peace
ADONAI Shamah – the Lord is there
ADONAI Tzidkenu – the Lord our righteousness
ADONAI Tzva’ot – the Lord of Sabbath, Lord of heaven’s armies, Lord of hosts
ADONAI Yir’eh – the Lord will see it
If you’ve been looking at God with small eyes, my sister in Christ, open His Word and read from the Psalms, one after the other, and pray for the Holy Spirit to lift the veil from your understanding so that you can see clearly the greatness and majesty and power and love, of the God we serve, our ADONAI.
Open your lips to pray again those prayers you thought hopeless. I have many of them, and they’ve not yet been answered, but I know how big my God is, and I trust Him to answer every one in the best way HE chooses, because I am but dust and see through a glass dimly, but He sees all, knowing the end from the beginning, and all His ways are true and just and perfect. I surrendered long ago to His will, and that’s something my Nana taught me…”Jennifer, God willing it will come to pass.”
Lord, I pray for all my sisters reading this today, that You widen their eyes to see You as You are, in all Your greatness and goodness and wisdom. I pray that they pick up the prayers which they felt were too hard for You, or the prayers they felt they could not ask because they weren’t worthy, or the prayers they were told were stupid…I pray they open their hearts to You in complete surrender, in total trust, and in childlike faith, and that You, our great Father, will in some way let them know they have been heard today, even if those prayers are not to be answered quickly or in a way they hoped for. We love and adore you, and I offer this prayer in the name of our Redeemer and Saviour, Jesus, Yeshua Messiah. Amen.
Bless you heaps!